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Roller Coaster

21 Sep

My mom, brother and I went to Fresno this past weekend to visit my grandpa and the rest of our family that lives there. One of the most prominent land marks that we pass on the way there and back is Six Flags. We always try to find the rides that are going and watch them in their ups, downs, and loopdy-loops. Speaking of roller coasters, I’ve been riding one of the emotional variety lately.

Found here.
The biggest drop happened yesterday morning at work and I ended up sobbing uncontrollably to our poor school secretary. That afternoon, I decided to find out if therapy (of the psychological variety) is covered under my insurance. It is! Yay! Now I’m calling around to find one that fits for me and my needs.
You might be thinking I’m overreacting – one emotional breakdown doesn’t mean I need therapy – but I’ve actually been meaning to do this for a while. I used to see someone when I was in high school and I really feel like I need that objective third party to help me learn how to deal with life. I can get very overwhelmed and very over-emotional and sometimes mildly depressed and I’m not afraid or opposed to talking to someone who might be able to teach me how to better myself. I know that therapists don’t solve problems, they help you learn how to deal with them.
Design show update: we made it through the next round of casting! Hopefully, we will know for sure in the next week or two. The anticipation is killing me!!

Ups and Downs

6 Feb

I have had a rough week. I started thinking about what started it all and how one thing led to the next and remembered that usually, when one aspect of my life starts to falter, the others follow suit.

I cried on Monday because a close family friend shared her experience with me of waiting two years after she was married to start trying for babies. She knew our plans of trying about a year after being married and wanted to give me some advice (I guess?). I am too sensitive, as my friends and family know, and it kind of sent me into doubt-ville.
Tuesday, a crazy driver sent me over the edge and I behaved like a child, then was terrified he would hunt me down and murder me.
Wednesday, I was observed while showing a movie and grading papers. Mind you, the class in question had already taken their final, had grades entered, and had not begun the new semester. I wasn’t sure what I was supposed to do with them as they knew nothing counted until Monday. Still, I definitely felt ashamed and angry at being observed that day.
Thursday, my husband and I were supposed to have a romantic dinner with wine. I drank some wine, but was so tense from all that my week had dealt me that I couldn’t relax. I hurt his feelings and went to bed depressed.
Today, I am trying to turn it all around. I did some fun lessons with my classes, even though the new semester doesn’t start until Monday and all my grades had to be in at 10:00am today. My husband is taking me out to dinner and I am going to nap beforehand so I’m not a cranky mess. I got home and noticed that the tree in front of our office window is starting to bloom.

With this pretty little preview of spring, I am looking ahead and leaving this terrible, horrible, no good, very bad* week behind.

What do you do when you have a bad day/week?

*I know I lead a charmed life when I say that this was a terrible week for me. I know that others have it worse and I am thankful this was as bad as it gets for me.